Sunday, December 12, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
will yes I would move in with my parents. but then again i do live with them now. I had to move back in with them after my divorced and too I don't like living by myself.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
On July 22nd I was in route to Washington , DC for a business trip. It
was all so very ordinary, until we landed in Denver for a plane change. As I
collected my belongings from the overhead bin, an announcement was made
for Mr. Lloyd Glenn to see the United Customer Service Representative
immediately. I thought nothing of it until I reached the door to leave
the plane and I heard a gentleman asking every male if he were Mr. Glenn. At
this point I knew something was wrong and my heart sunk.
When I got off the plane a solemn-faced young man came toward me and
said, 'Mr. Glenn, there is an emergency at your home. I do not know what the
emergency is, or who is involved, but I will take you to the phone so you can call
the hospital.' My heart was now pounding, but the will to be calm took
over. Woodenly, I followed this stranger to the distant telephone where I
called the number he gave me for the Mission Hospital . My call was put through
to the trauma center where I learned that my three-year-old son had been
trapped underneath the automatic garage door for several minutes, and
that when my wife had found him he was dead. CPR had been performed by a
neighbor, who is a doctor, and the paramedics had continued the
treatment as Brian was transported to the hospital.
By the time of my call, Brian was revived and they believed he would
live, but they did not know how much damage had been done to his brain, nor to
his heart. They explained that the door had completely closed on his
little sternum right over his heart. He had been severely crushed. After
speaking with the medical staff, my wife sounded worried but not hysterical, and
I took comfort in her calmness.
The return flight seemed to last forever, but finally I arrived at the
hospital six hours after the garage door had come down. When I walked
into the intensive care unit, nothing could have prepared me to see my little
son laying so still on a great big bed with tubes and monitors everywhere.
He was on a respirator. I glanced at my wife who stood and tried to give me
a reassuring smile. It all seemed like a terrible dream. I was filled-in
with the details and given a guarded prognosis. Brian was going to live, and
the preliminary tests indicated that his heart was OK, two miracles in and
of themselves. But only time would tell if his brain received any damage.
Throughout the seemingly endless hours, my wife was calm. She felt that
Brian would eventually be all right. I hung on to her words and faith
like a lifeline. All that night and the next day Brian remained unconscious It
seemed like forever since I had left for my business trip the day
Finally at two o'clock that afternoon, our son regained consciousness
and sat up uttering the most beautiful words I have ever heard spoken. He
said, 'Daddy hold me' and he reached for me with his little arms.
By the next day he was pronounced as having no neurological or physical
deficits, and the story of his miraculous survival spread throughout the
hospital. You cannot imagine, we took Brian home, we felt a unique
reverence for the life and love of our Heavenly Father that comes to those who
brush death so closely.
In the days that followed there was a special spirit about our home. Our
two older children were much closer to their little brother. My wife and I
were much closer to each other, and all of us were very close as a whole
family. Life took on a less stressful pace. Perspective seemed to be more
focused, and balance much easier to gain and maintain. We felt deeply blessed.
Our gratitude was truly profound.
The story is not over (smile)!
Almost a month later to the day of the accident, Brian awoke from his
afternoon nap and said, 'Sit down Mommy.. I have something to tell you.'
At this time in his life, Brian usually spoke in small phrases, so to say a
large sentence surprised my wife. She sat down with him on his bed, and
he began his sacred and remarkable story.
'Do you remember when I got stuck under the garage door? Well, it was so
heavy and it hurt really bad. I called to you, but you couldn't hear
me.. I started to cry, but then it hurt too bad. And then the 'birdies' came.'
'The birdies?' my wife asked puzzled.
'Yes,' he replied. 'The birdies made a whooshing sound and flew into the
garage. They took care of me.'
'Yes,' he said. 'One of the birdies came and got you. She came to tell
you 'I got stuck under the door.' A sweet reverent feeling filled the room.
The spirit was so strong and yet lighter than air. My wife realized that a
three-year-old had no concept of death and spirits, so he was referring
to the beings who came to him from beyond as 'birdies' because they were up
in the air like birds that fly... 'What did the birdies look like?' she asked.
Brian answered, 'They were so beautiful. They were dressed in white, all
white. Some of them had green and white. But some of them had on just
'Did they say anything?'
'Yes,' he answered. 'They told me the baby would be all right.'
'The baby?' my wife asked confused.
Brian answered. 'The baby laying on the garage floor.' He went on, 'You
came out and opened the garage door and ran to the baby. You told the baby to
stay and not leave.'
My wife nearly collapsed upon hearing this, for she had indeed gone and
knelt beside Brian's body and seeing his crushed chest whispered, 'Don't
leave us Brian, please stay if you can.' As she listened to Brian telling her the
words she had spoken, she realized that the spirit had left His body
and was looking down from above on this little lifeless form.. 'Then
what happened?' she asked.
'We went on a trip,' he said, 'far, far away.' He grew agitated trying
to say the things he didn't seem to have the words for. My wife tried to
calm and comfort him, and let him know it would be okay. He struggled with
wanting to tell something that obviously was very important to him, but
finding the words was difficult.
'We flew so fast up in the air. They're so pretty Mommy,' he added.
'And there are lots and lots of birdies.' My wife was stunned. Into her
mind the sweet comforting spirit enveloped her more soundly, but with an
urgency she had never before known. Brian went on to tell her that the 'birdies'
had told him that he had to come back and tell everyone about the
'birdies..' He said they brought him back to the house and that a big fire truck,
and an ambulance were there. A man was bringing the baby out on a white
bed and he tried to tell the man that the baby would be okay. The story went
on for an hour.
He taught us that 'birdies' were always with us, but we don't see them
because we look with our eyes and we don't hear them because we listen
with our ears. But they are always there, you can only see them in here (he
put his hand over his heart). They whisper the things to help us to do what
is right because they love us so much. Brian continued, stating, 'I have a
plan, Mommy. You have a plan.. Daddy has a plan. Everyone has a plan. We
must all live our plan and keep our promises. The birdies help us to do
that cause they love us so much.'
In the weeks that followed, he often came to us and told all, or part of
it, again and again. Always the story remained the same. The details were
never changed or out of order. A few times he added further bits of
information and clarified the message he had already delivered. It never
ceased to amaze us how he could tell such detail and speak beyond
his ability when he talked about his birdies.
Everywhere he went, he told strangers about the 'birdies.' Surprisingly,
no one ever looked at him strangely when he did this. Rather, they always
got a softened look on their face and smiled. Needless to say, we have not
been the same ever since that day, and I pray we never will be.
You have just been sent an Angel to watch over you. Some people come
into our lives and quickly go...Some people become friends and stay a
while...leaving beautiful footprints on our hearts ... and we are never
quite the same because we have made a good friend!!
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why
it's called the present! Live and savor every moment...this is not a dress
rehearsal! THIS IS A SPECIAL GUARDIAN ANGEL...
YOU MUST PASS THIS ON TO 5 PEOPLE WITHIN THE HOUR OF RECEIVING IT...IF
YOU HAVE PASSED HER ON, SHE'LL WATCH OVER YOU FOREVER...IF NOT, HER TEARS WILL FLOW...
Now don't delete this message, because it comes from a very special
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I haven't been to many places
that I am not to sure who it would be
I have thought about that but then again I couldnt pick one
tell me everything that u would like me to know
I wouldn't want to ask him anything
I don't know if I could do a talk show. but that would be hard to pick just 3 people since there is a lot of people that i would like to meet
that I couldn't tell u right off hand
that I am not to sure. and then again I am not to sure if I would want a time machine the past has made me who I am today and the future however u sp it is going to make me who I am going to be later on in life too.
I don't think I would want to be either one since I am so shy
yes I have. will one was her boss had pick 2 people already to work and she didn't know it at the time. so she had to let go of last to. and one was the buiness was going under so she had to let go of few people.
I don't think it's right for the media to get in anyone business
Monday, November 15, 2010
I don't know since I never know anything about that
Saturday, November 13, 2010
No I am not either one. but I do have family and friends that are veteran and still in the armed forces.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
The book that I just finish last night is Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. Here is what it was said on the back of it. "Dear John,"the letter read. And with those two words, a heart was broken and two lives changed forever. When Savannah Lynn Curtis comes into his life, John Tyree knows he is ready to turn over a new leaf. An angry rebel, he had enlisted in the army after high school, not knowing what else to do. Then, during a furlough, he meets Savannah, the girl of his dreams. The attraction is mutual and quickly grows into the kind of love that leaves Savannah vowing to wait for John while he finishes his tour of duty. But neither can foresee that 9/11 is about to change the world. Like so many proud men and women, John must choose between love and country. Now, when he finally returns to North Carolina, John will discover how love can transform us in ways we never could have imagined.
That is all on the back of the book. Now for what I thought of the book. It was good at the bening of the book. But close to the end I didn't like it to much any more. At time I didn't want to read it any more but I need to finish it or I wouldn't start a new book. And I do have lot of other books that I need to read. Back to the book. Closer to the end of it got sad and thats what I didn't like about it. I don't like sad ending to anything. And I didn't like how it end either. I am not to sure what he was thinking about when it just let the man person just walke away from her like that. But if you want to know why he just did that for then you need to read the book. I am not going to give you the answer to it.
Now for the book that I am going to be reading now is The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks.
For what is on the back of the book about it. Seventeen-year-old Veronica "Ronnie" Miller's life was turned upside down when her parents divorced and her father moved to Wrightsville Beach, North Carolina. Three years later, she remains alienated from her parents, patricularly her father...until her mother decides it would be in everyone's best interest if she and her brother spent the summer with him. Resentful and rebellious, Ronnie rejects her father's attempts to reach out to her and threatens to return to New York before the summer's end. But soon Ronnie meets Will, the last person she thought she'd ever be attracted to, and finds herself falling for him,opening herself up to the greatest happiness--and pain--that she has ever know.
In the tradition of his beloved novel A Walk to Remember, Nicholas Sprak Brings us deeply moving story of a young gril's first encounter with heartbreak--and love. The LAST SONG
But I have read any of it yet so I can't tell you what I think of so far. So you all have to wait till I am done with the book to find out what I think of it. I just hope that this one is not sad as the last book I read. I just don't think I can take other one like that.
Friday, October 29, 2010
So now where should I start from. I did finish the book that I was reading and it was good. The book that I was reading is Patrick Swayze & Lisa Niemi The Time of My Life. It was really good way to the inside of there life. And he does tell you about how he got into this movie and other things like from rewriting some of the store. And it started out from his dancing life and how he meet his wife and all the way up to his death. When he knew there was something wrong with himself. I think it something you should read it if you like Patrick Swayze & Lisa Niemi.
Now for the book that I am just about done with. Dear John by Nicholas Sparinks. It is good. I haven't seen the movie for it yet. But I really like reading the book before I see the movie. For one thing it so see what they have left or change from the book. This book could be use for a reading group guide. This what is on the back of the book and I will tell u something what I think of it so far and when I am done I will go more into it. "Dear John," the letter read. And with those two words, a heart was broken and two lives changed forever.
When Savannah Lynn Curtis comes into his life, John Tyree knows he is ready to turn over a new leaf. An angry rebel, he had enlisted in the army after high school, not knowing what else to do. Then, during a furlough, he meets Savannah, the girl of his dreams. The attraction is mutual and quickly grows into the kind of love that leaves Savannah vowing to wait for John while he finishes his tour of duty. But neither can foresee 9/11 is about to change the world. Like so many proud men and women, John must choose between love and country. Now, when he finally returns to North Carolina, John will discover how love can transform us in ways we never could have imagined.
That is all was on the back of the book. From what I have read of it is good. But there has been some sad part to this book. But I don't like sad books but I didn't know it was going to have any sad parts to it. But it has been a good one to read. If anyone has read this book just let me know in the comments and let me know what u think of it.
Now lets move on to the other things that has been going on around here. My granny been in the hospital last month. She had knee surgery. Since her right knee was going in on her and it was making it hard for her to walk at time I guess. But we didn't know she was any kind of pain. But she is home and doing really good now. She is getting around a lot better and with no help. And the other day the dr said she can drive again. I knew she didn't like it when she couldn't drive and everyone else had to do things for her and she don't like that. Since everyone has to wait on her and take her places.
So now for this month it's been a kind of a busy one too. We did go on a little trip to see some family. It was my dad uncle and his wife. They both had a attacke last year but his wasn't that bad has her's. And she is in a nurserying home. She is doing really good and she look just like she did the last time we saw her. But she can't use her left side. One of my dad cousin went with us. And it was the first time going on a trip with her. But we all had a great time I wouldn't mind doing it again. So tomorrow is Halloween and I can't wait for it since I will be passing out candy and I will be wearing a mask of a spider and I will get to see my neice all dressed up and I can't wait to see her or see how many kids that we will have this year.
Will I think I have writing a book tonight so I am going to stop here and get this post on here and few other site that I know that some people might read it or at lest I hope that someone does. Have a safe and Happy Halloween
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Will for the name of the book that I just finish is. The Musketeer's Apprentice by Sarah D'Almeida
The book wasn't to bad really. There was at time it got boring but it still keep you into the book. One of the bad things is it didn't really have chapter or at lest it didn't say them. Just the name of what the chapter was going to be about. I never had a bood to do that. Most of the other books I have read did tell me how many chapter the book had in it. For what it si about. Will it about this Musketeer that was teaching this one kid how to fencing. But at the time he didn't know the boy was his son. When the boy didn't show up for his leson thats when he went looking for the boy. But when he did find him he was died. Poison to death since there wasn't anything to make it look like it was fight. He wanted to find out who did this to the boy.
They had to go back to where the boy was from to find out somethings about him. And thats when he find out the died boy was his son. So he went back to his own home town to find out more. Even thought it was kind of sad but it was still good. That the Musketeer find out what really happen. But he didn't know he has a son till he was gone. Even the boy mother was poison to. But I am not going to tell to much more about this book if I did then you wouldn't want to read it for yourself. But the end did come out happy for everyone.
I know this was my first one and it might not be that good. But it's better to have tryed then not to try at all. I hope that you all like what I have to say about this book.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
But do we know what is the real thing any more? That is the hard thing to tell now days. There is so many people lieing this days and how can we tell when someone is telling the truth or the real thing too. Why can't there be more honest people in the world. It seem like there more liers then honest people. It just seem so hard to find the honest people out there. Maybe they are just hiding and we can't find them just yet. It one more hard thing out of life that we have to try and find.
The only one know who is the real thing is God. He will let us know who is the real thing. But at time you wish that he would tell you sooner then later. But he just does thing in his own way and his own time. We have to wait it out and sometime we just tired of the waiting but we still have to do it no matter what. But what if a guy call you one mins and you can't really talk to him at that time and you tell the guy that you would call them when you have more free time. But when you do call that person back and he said he can't hear you on the phone that you was on. And you try other phone but the person don't bother to answer you. What should you make out of that. But you do text the guy to find out why he didn't answer you and he said don't feel like talking right now. What should you make of it. Thats the think it seem like he like you still and other time he don't. Thats what I don't get out of some people this days. It seem like they are hot one mins for you and then the next they are cold when it don't go there way. Why can't peopel say what they really mean and mean it in the long run. I know sometime we might not know what we really want right then. But at lest tell the person so they know whats going on.
Why do some guys or even people think that they know you, but they really don't know you at all. They say you are like this person which you are not like that person at all. They just don't like it that you don't like them in the same way and they don't want to really say it they like you that way. So they have to get mad at you and say you are the one in some kind of mood, which you are not in any kind of mood. Why do people have to make you things and try to get there own way. It just seem like guys are the one that does it more then anyone else out of life. I know few guys that are like that. They don't care if they hurt you in the long run. Even if they say they don't want to hurt you but they already have. But you still like then and even love them. But they maybe bad for you in the long run. What if God is telling you that this person is the one for you.
How do you know if the guy you think might be the one that God thing you should be with is the one. That something is so hard to tell for me any way. What God is trying to tell me what is right for me or what to do in life. There are other people out there think that they know what is best for me when sometime I don't know. I know there are some people want to know everything that is going in your life. But is it right they need to know everything and they don't bother telling everything going on in there life. I don't think so. They should tell you everything thats gone and then you should tell them whats going after did. But some people wont do that. I just don't know what to do any more. I know I might have said somethings over and over in here or even in some of the other blogs I have done before. Sometime I just don't know what to say and other times I just can't remember what I have said in everyone of my blogs that I have done. But I think that I am going to end this one right here.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
I just wish I knew where to go from here. It seem like that I have tryed just about everything that I can think of doing to finding someone. It just don't seem like it working any more. Like I said before in other blog that I have done most of the site that I been on just want your money and it just care that you don't have the money for it. They just need other way for you to see who is writing you or have something on there where they could put there email address or something that on it. But most of don't want that on there with out you paying for the site. Thats what I just don't get out of them. But I keep on looking on other site. It just don't seem that working for me either. Right I am at a point in life I just don't any more or just about to give up on everything. Till I hear that someone going to get married or just been to a Wedding or going to have a baby, and thats when I get to think am I going to have that again.
I am so tired of everything this days. I know that I shouldn't give up on looking for the right guy for me. Just seem like I should do that since nothing else is working out right for me any more. I know that God has hand in everything in my life but it just don't seem like it any more. I know that I shouldn't give up God any more. Thats one thing that I am not going to try and give up on him. I have to pray harder and see if he led me down the right road to that great guy. I am just so tired of waiting around. I know that I am still going on with my life doing things that I should be doing everyday. I just would like someone else beside my family to do that way too. Just don't know any more on anything.
Friday, July 16, 2010
I know that I don't have kids of my own. But I do watch kids at my church. So I thought of something you might want to try with your own kids. You could ask them what they would think is fun that you could do outside. I know most kids now days just wanted to stay home and play games on the computer or video games too. And lot of them are not that much fun and you don't get up and move. The only one that does it is the wii game and that is a lot of fun. But then again you can't get your kids to do that one either they just want to sit there and watch tv. I know that not good for anyone to do all day long really.
So like I said before ask them what is fun. Thats the first thing you should with anything to ask them what they like. But sometime you just might get something good out of them. Other one is try to get them outside to do thing that means riding there blickes or taking a walk. But I know that some kids might not think that is any fun just walking. But you could ask them what they see on there walk or count how many house on the block and other things. It's other way for them to learn and other way you guys to get closer. The best thing you can do is to try to make it fun. Just do something different every day. Don't just do it once a week then it wouldn't be much fun if you just did it once and never went back to it. The thing is you have to keep it up so that they would want to have a better life in the long run.
I know it's hard to get kids to eat the right foods too. And I know they might not look that good. What I would do if a wouldn't eat something. I would say try a bit to make sure it don't taste bad as it look. Sometime some food can look bad then it taste. It's never good to make a kid eat something that they really don't want to eat even if they have tryed it. Get your kids in the middle of thing like make it fun to learn how the food is made or get them to cook with you. In the end then they are more likely to try the foods that you want them to eat. And it would stick with them in the long run. Everything we do with kids we got to make it fun for them to learn if we don't then they just don't want to do it. Even with reading. Sometime it we have to work out a way to get kids to do anything this days. They just want to stay in the house. Thats not good for anyone.
So what would you do to get your kids to work out or to do anything that is fun outside? I know sometime it's to hot for them to be outside. But you can do something inside that are fun and they are moving. That the really key here is getting your kids moving more. Thats what I want for all the kids is to move a little more then just sitting around and doing nothing all day.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Wouldn't live be much easier if they was that easy to benign with? Then again it wouldn't be much fun if it was that easy out of life I would think. So the old saying goes nothing that easy come to people everyone have to work for what they got. But there are people that it seem to be much easier for them then other. That's just how live is now days. So nothing you want going to come to you with out a little hard work any more. That mean if you are looking something up online or talking to someone or anything else for that matter. But you should just keep on trying and never give up on anything or anyone. I don't sometime you should give up on people too. Even if they hurt you so bad. It just depend on how they hurt you would be a reason to give up on them. But I know if they are your friends then you really shouldn't give up on them I would say. But if it's an ex then it just might be a lot easier to give up on them and let that person just walk away from you no matter what happens to you and that person. It could be for the better in life.
But the big thing is why does cell phone have to do something like that for? That the thing we can't don't know why they do it for we just have to guess on why it happen. But we do hope it don't happen again. But one of this days we are going to a big wrong # and we could be in a lot of hot water with it. Have you ever thought about that one before? I don't think we really have. What if it goes to the police's office and if they do try to call you back to find out if you ment to call them. But if they don't get you back they just might come to your door. So what should you do then. And how are you going to get yourself out of that one if it happen more then ones. But you never know what you are going to do till it happen. At lest that never has happen to me yet. And I hope it never does happen either. I know that there are problems with cell phone's this days. But we just don't when or where it going to mess up on us either.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Now here come the bad thing about the dating site I think are. Most of the site what you to pay for them. But not everyone can pay for the site. And they say it's free and is it really free. So are they really liying about it bening free thats the big thing. Lot of them wont even let you see who sent you anything and I think thats not right to do either. I think all the dating site want is your money and don't care if you want to find your soulemate or not. And that does get to me more then anything. And lot of site want to help you find that person but they are not making it any easser for you to do that. Now I have a question for you all. What do you think most of this dating site are out for? 1. To help you to find the right person for you. 2. Are they just out for the money. You know what I think about this now it's your turn.
What is the hardest thing is getting people to read my blogs and getting comments on them and left on this page. I know that there are few people that do read this and thanks to you guys. You guys make it why I even bother to do a blog in the first places and other is to get whatever is on my mind at that time out and get help.
So now where do I go from here. Should I just keep on writing what is on my mind and hope someone see it and think that I should get paid for what I am doing. Like I said before where do I go from here now. So I am upside down on all this. But I do have some ideas on somethings that I might want to wright about just not to sure if there are any good.
Well here are some of the ideas that I have been thinking about.
1. Writing about the books that I have read or going to be reading.
2. Just writing whats going on around me and what is on my mind.
3. Writing about God and church.
4. Writing about the show that I do watch or maybe thinking about watching or even movies that I like.
I know there just only 4 right now. There will be more later on. Just want to start off slow with all this. And I could use all the help that I can get. Just have to wait and see how things go from here on out. Longer as I type then they just start coming to me. But that might be a good thing. So I hope this is a very good start.
Friday, July 9, 2010
I was thinking about why do people say they love you but if you don't say it back to does it really mean you don't love them? I know it's hard to say that would when you don't hear growning up or you been hurt one to many times in the past. But I know my family don't say it that much to each other. It doesn't mean we don't love each other very much and yes I know that my family and friends love me. Even if they don't say it to me but they do show it to me in different ways. Like a hug every now and then or just sitting on the computer and talking to or talking to me in person or by phone that's other way of showing you love someone. But someone think that they have to say it back and then they will say you don't love me or don't care about me. But that not true. But I will say this if that person don't believe anything you say then that person didn't really care about you in the first places. And if they try to turn then around to make you feel back. But that's not right to do either.
But what can you do about all this just to end things with that person? But sometime you need to just let that person go. Since that person wanted it his way no matter what you may say or do. And too I don't think that person really truth ed you in the long run. If that person did then they wouldn't have made you feel bad in the long run. That person need to change for the better. They need to let God work in there life before they could really love you. Even if they say that they really love you and I do mean it. But sometime how can u believe then when they don't do what they said they was going to do in the first place. Even thought they need to find a way to do it. But if they really cared they would have worked much hard to do it. But sometime you want to believe them but should you really believe them in the first place, since they have hurt once before. I know that people can change over time.
But how much time should you give them before you give them other change? A few months or few years or what. That's other thing you can never tell when you should give anyone time to see if they will change before you should end things or give them other change with you. I think that is something that is so hard for anyone to give a good answer with. Now days I am going to take it slower like I have said I am going to do it slow since I been hurt one to many time in my live and I know people don't want to hurt anyone else. But sometime you just can't help it. I know this person said they didn't want to hurt me but in the long run they did it. I think they did it from the start and I didn't want to see it at first. But everyone else around me did see and was trying to tell me that I should tell this person off for good. Then again I wanted to see if this person would change. But I don't think this person would every change at all.
From now on I am going to let God have a big hand in everything I do when it come to dating this days. Since he give up his son for us. And he did so much for us in the long run. If it wasn't for God none of us would be hear. And he has made us in the person that he wanted us to be. But at time I don't think he is done working on us. Some of us need a lot more work and I know that we don't get what we want from God when we ask him for it. It might not be are time for whatever we do ask him. I know he has done some good things in this world. He has sent a missing boy that was missing for 3 days back home to his family that missed him very much. And lot of other things that we may not know about. So I am going to let God do what he can for me and my family. And I am going to take things slow at it and see where it goes from here on out.
When you are not looking for something that's when God and yourself will find the right person for you. You just have to give it sometime. But the thing is can you wait around for the right person? I know that can be a hard thing to do. I am one of them that just don't like to wait for something. I have called it the waiting game. Since that what it feel like sometime for me. But sometime the best things come to the people that wait for it. So I guess I have to do the waiting game if I like it or not. I know you shouldn't go fast if you do then you will get burned in the long run and that's not a good thing either. But you don't have to wait around along you have your family and friends to help past the time by with.
Here is other good question for you all. What if you don't have friends or any family around then what? So are you really waiting around a long or do you have someone with you? I don't think you are really waiting around along there is Jesus and his father God there with you in the long run. You may not see them but they are there. And they love you for yourself no matter what you may or may not do in this world. They are the ounces that wont leave you. This past month or maybe 2 I have learned that lesson for sure. I know God is there for me know matter what. And I do have a great family and friends. Even thought I might not see all my friends in person but I know they are there for me no matter what just like God there. I know that it don't feel like it all the time. But everyone does have a life of there own too. And we got to respect it if we want them in our life forever. We all never know whats really going to happen from one day to the next. So you have to take it one day at a time. That's what I am going to do from now on and let things happen.
The old saying goes everything happen for a reason. And sometime you can ask why it happen since you might not like the answer. Or should you ask why to see what it does give you? That the thing you never know when it's a good time to ask why or for help for that matter. I know that there are some people out that is scared to ask for help. And there are other that does ask and keep on asking for and they just don't do anything for themselves. But I ask for help and I do try to give back and help other out when I can. We just can't all ways help other people out when they would like it. And that person can't understand it you can't help. And they get mad at you for that. But they got to understand not everyone can help everyone out all the time. So is that a reason to get mad at someone for? And when you know something not going to happen before it does. Is that a good reason to get mad for? Should the other person you are trying to tell you what they are going to do and still working on get mad at you? But sometime you know the other person a little better then they know there oneself.
Like my thing is in this blog for is why do people say they love and do they really love you. I may have said it already if I didn't then here we go. I know there are some people that you know that will love you till the end of time and that should be your family. But sometime that's not all ways the cases. But God love you no matter what you do or don't do in this world. I know I have said that before but that is the truth. Will I know I have said a lot for this one blog so I am going to end it here.
Monday, June 14, 2010
I just hope that I remember on what I put for this part of the blog since it was a very long one at that. But I guess I have to try and remember now. I know it had something to do with 2 of my ex's boyfriends and other guy that I was going to meet but didn't. I will tell you more about that one later. Will lest start with my very last boyfriend that I had. I thought we was going to get back togther not that long after we broke up. but didn't happen. I didn't hear that much out of him since feb. but he did forward me things that goes to a link where u can get medincen online. But I did get an email from him day after my B-day asking for my # again. and when I asked him why he wanted it he thought that I had someone. But before I finish tell you about that one lest talk about the other ex boyfriend I had years before. when he came to me on my old yahoo name to talk to me for the first time in a long time. he had a girlfriend. but when we did talk or text on the phone he said he was going to end thing with here. but when we was on yahoo that one night he didn't want me to tell this one person thatwe was talking since she would cause trouble and lot of the time she did do that. and she knew both of my of my ex. But when I did get to talk to him on the phone he said he was going to end things with his girlfriend that he had. and he told me he been thinking about me more this year then he has been and too that he has change and he wanted to see me when he did come down here for the holidays in May. And he wanted to see if we could work things out and I told him I just don't know since you hurt me really bad in the past. he said can't u let go of the past I have change. and I said I just don't know don't. But I did get to see him while he was in town. He and his brother came to the house and we went to the park where his kids was at. and his aunt just yelled at him for not having the kids in bed yet. and he told her that they stay up late on weekend and too they will go to bed when I got to bed. but she didn't like that. But we never got the time alone like he said he wanted to do. since his brother came with him and he had his brothr to take me back home. and he stayed and we talked for a little while but my ex couldn't wait for his brother to get back with the car. he said where is my car I said you didn't need to know that. And he used his mom saying she wanted to know where his was at and I did tell him that his car was save but he didn't like that. I did tell his brother to tell him to say that he got something that you wanted. but nothing every happen it was a joke to see what he would do. but he did say that he was going to call the cop's I am not to sure if he was meaning on me or his brother. but I did find out from someone that he was still going to get married but he didn't change things on his profile like he keep on saying he not getting married. I told him that he need to turn everything over to me like he said he was going to do. But he didn't do that either. and he never told me when he was leaving on the monday. but i did get an text from his brother told me that they was home. but i couldn't do that much texting since I had to watch my texting mins. I haven't heard anything from him in a long time now. it been about a week or so since i heard anything from his brother. Now lest more on to my last ex boyfriend that this year. but like I said earlier in this blog that he ask for my # and we did talk by email a little bit that day. and last tuesday was the day that he did call with a different # and I didn't know who it was but he said yes you do know who this is. and i took a guess on who it was and I was right. but he did ask me in email if wanted to be his girlfriend again. I said we can be friends and he said that we already friends. and he get mad at everything it seemed like. but this past friday he told me while we was on the phone that he loved me really love me like a girlfriend. and thursday he did ask me if I wanted to go with him to a 4th of July pool party. and I said sure. but it will give me something else to do on that day. but when i found out that the 4th was on a sunday and that I had to work. he got mad at me about that and said can't you find someone else to work for you. and i told him that the other person that does sunday school she might be out of town that weekend she might wanted to spend time with her daughter and her family in ST Louise or they might come in that weekend. and he said just forget that I even bother asking you then and hung up the phone on me. But lot of the time he does the calling or texting me first. but he did ask me did I try on my babysutie that I have to see if it still fit into it. but I haven't done it yet. and I ask him u still want to take me thats why I ask about the babysute. but he know that it will be after work before we can go. and too he has to pick me up if not going to do that then I am not going. but he still think that I am his girlfriend. but he someone to hang out with till the right one come along. he got to do a lot of work before I would call him my boyfriend again. but i can't trust him. he think that he my boyfriend i just don't know what to really think about him or do about him for that. lest move on to something else.
why do I get guys that need money to me and use a sad story on me and try for money then. but thats not going to work. now if I saw the person face to face then i could help them better or could tell them where to go to get help and other things. and some of this guys have kids and i guess this guys think it would be safter on them and it look like I am a mean person but I am not just bening host with them and then they just stop talking to me now. but i don't know why i keep on getting this type of guys. is there something wrong with me or a sign on me some where saying how stupided I am or something. but now if I knew the guys in person then I would tell them where they could go to get some help. I am not just going to hand over money to someone I don't know and too I don't have the money either and some of this guys don't want to believe me. why me like I said before is there something wrong with me. I think that I am going to stop here since it's gotting very long and vista want to mess up on me the whole time I been trying to type out this blog tonight and it been pissing me off.